A Whisper

My evening breath
says your name
and I wonder

Should I distract it
or let it run its course

Should I let it whisper
the name my heart
so longs to hear

Or should I shelter it
from the realest passion
I've felt in a life-time.

Could Be Bipolar (unofficially)

Bipolar disorder is very real, and many of us experience it more often than we think. What is Bipolar disorder you ask? Well let me explain it. Bipolar disorder is "a mood disorder thought to be caused by chemical imbalances in the brain that can result in extreme swings in mood". Does that sound familiar to anyone?

Have you ever been close to a person that is intense and lively, funny and charismatic, joyful and uptempo one minute, then somber and dull, drab and sobering, a straight up Debbie Downer the next? Well you're in the presence of a person suffering from Bipolar Disorder (unofficially).

I know a number of people with this aliment. The worst is when it comes out in a person you're dating. Friends are easy to dismiss cause you can just disappear until the crazy (mood swing) goes away. But when it occurs with someone you're dating it can be a bit confusing and conflicting. They want you, they don't want you. They love you, they hate you. The sex is amazing, the sex is non-existent. They're sorry and trying to change, they'll never change and wish you'd just leave. All these conflicting communications can drive a person nuts.

How do you know which mood is really them? The answer is, you don't.

The Battle Within

The conflict of fighting what comes natural to feel and how you want to feel.

Stuck in the mindset of a past relationship that obviously doesn't work. Disagreeing with your own response to a situation and wanting to be more rational, but fighting what comes naturally.

Some want to have a different kind of relationship but in order to do so they'd need a different mindset.

Can a new fangled approach to relationships work, where each person can have their cake and eat it too? I think communication and confidence are key. Insecurities have no place in a modern day relationship, but show me a person with zero insecurities.

I Don't Wanna be a Playa No More

As of lately, it seems like the summer is when people put their love lives into perspective. I've been single for a little over 3 years now, and it's been the longest I've ever been detached from the "relationship scene" (since the ripe ole age of 15). The past three years have been filled with so many emotions and lack there of, if that's possible.  Prior to my release from pre-matrimony, I was in a 12 year battle of love. That war took it out of me, and like so many warriors before me I've seen the trenches and patched up what felt like gaping wholes in my soul.